As a middle age adult, you are still considered teenager in this world.
You are ambitious. You have an unrealistic schedule of time for your success.
Despite the fact that you are internally not healthy, you are ignoring the very signals sent out from all the unhappy organs to you.
Hope you have a better brain and nervous system replacement soon, the better brain which would listen to the cries from the organs, the better nervous system which would do appropriate action to make your own healthier.
Hope you would finally realize that the enemy is not from internal, but external.
Hope you get well soon, Malaysia.
Happy 48th Birthday !